Started taking my meds again today. Got the script filled yesterday. Thought it would be a matter of popping one in the morning and feeling all jolly again like I was before my thunder was crashed and stolen and redeveloped into a spinning sphere of bright red hate and anguish.
But no, within ten minutes my pupils are dilated to size of mini 8-balls. My mouth is dry and my teeth are grinding. The yawns also start. By god the yawns, I swear within a 1 minute time frame I could yawn 70 times. Not normal ones, but short, jagged, strained with immense tension from my neck to the lower back with each breath of air. I’m remembering it all now. If I had remembered how bad the start was, I wouldn’t have started again!! All I can think of is the goodness I feel.
Then the sickness started about an hr afterwards. I held on as long as I could to subdue the waves of nausea causing me grief in public. Public it happened to be. Ride outside a hospital. I was lucky enough to make it to a lonely little alley way and sat there on the cold tar, pouring down with rain, and waited for it to go away.
I went to the hospital for an allergy test today from a referral from the Ed last month. It appears I have become allergic to anti-histamines such as Ibuprofen, Aspirin etc.. Every Friday now I have to go to the hospital where they pump me full of a different drug and sit there for 5 hours in a controlled environment to see if it happens again. That way if it does, they can make it go away quicker. But just the thought of that crazy burn red raw swollen feeling covering my body again for the third time is enough to make me miss the appointments and just never take pain killers again.
I also went to the doctors yesterday. Bailed up in bed in pain I hadn’t noticed before. Turns out the doctor discovered I have a very sensitive spot which is likely to be either my appendix or a cyst on the old egg makers.. Rather than cause a fuss and more $$, I’m going to resume my everyday duties minus pain killers. I have found another way to make the pain go away. No it’s not alcohol and it’s not illegal.. Well in some states..
Finally got water into the house last night. Had two rather gorgeous young men rock up to my house at 9pm in a big truck. They dug many holes around the street and stood standing in the rain talking to me and teaching me how everything works. By 11.30 pm they decided to hook my pipe up to a neighbour’s yard to get water. The road needs to be pulled up to replace the pipe leading into my house. What fun. At least I have water for the first time in 6 days. You take for granted the simple things such as warm long showers, washing hands in running water, being able to do the dishes.. Although my toilet still flushed which was a bonus.. I survived on heaps of Dettol hand wash and bottled water. Never Again.
